[He flinches a little when she touches him, staring blankly at where her hand rests on top of his for several moments before he pulls in a shuddering breath and sighs it back out again.]
I know it wasn't my fault, and he wouldn't want me to blame myself for it either.
[Haurchefant would hate that. He'd want E'kayan to keep going... no matter what. The Miqo'te shakes his head.]
But I still... I know he'd still be alive if we hadn't approached him to begin with.
[ She notices, but she won’t withdraw her hand unless he does.]
I think your paths would have crossed eventually.
[Venat’s heart hurts for him. Was that why he was so scared? Did he not trust his own ability after that? ]
E’kayan, may I offer you a few words? You do not have to heed them of course. I know I have caused you far more trouble than you have ever asked for as well.
[He doesn't move his hand. He turns his own over and curls it around hers instead, seeming to find some comfort in that.]
Maybe. [E'kayan murmurs. Haurchefant always did have a talent for finding trouble, especially where E'kayan was involved. Maybe Venat is right, and his involvement really was inevitable...
The Miqo'te looks up and cocks his head, then manages a smile.]
[He remembers hearing those words echoing in his mind, over and over again, not really understanding what they meant in full until their final confrontation. Still, those three words had served as a guide to the Scions for so long...
E'kayan looks down at their hands when she squeezes his and smiles a little. It's funny to hear her say something like that.]
I had to learn to do that. [He agrees with a small nod.] It took longer than I would have liked, but... I did learn that. [Going to the First had helped, and everything that had come after had only solidified his resolve. He could face the most difficult of trials as long as he had people around him to lean on. They all could.]
But you'll remember your own words too, won't you? [The Miqo'te looks up at her then, giving a small shake of his head to move his hair out of his eyes.] You don't have to be alone either. Not anymore. So... I hope you're not, and that you're finding ways to be happy.
[ She is! She always has been! She knows that life has been tough for those she has selected as her champions. She is touched by his words as well, she knows that he well knew what she said and was able to use it back against her.
She just smiles, reassuring. ]
I am no longer alone, I promise, and it is because of all of you. I am blessed in that way at the very least.
[He wonders how many people have said that to her, or if she had thought about wanting that for herself. She had been alone for such a long time, carrying her burden with no one else to turn to. E'kayan has felt alone during his journey but he knows he can't even begin to comprehend her isolation.]
The loss has been hard, sometimes, but I've always tried to move forwards. Erenville, though... [The Miqo'te feels his face heat up.] It's different. I care about him... a lot. He's not just a friend.
[She had not too long ago been isolated again, but it was to her own fault. If Emet hadn’t come… she may well have turned to crystal without anyone knowing. But she won’t mention that part to E’kayan. The most important thing is that she has people now. ]
He’s not just a friend, hm? I’m glad to hear that for you as well.
[It's funny, how that hits him. He's never really thought about it in terms of being something he deserves, because doesn't everyone, but as she says those words he realises that at some point along the way he really did lose the hope that it was something he was ever going to get to have regardless of how much he might want it.]
No, he, um. He's not just a friend. [The colour in his face darkens.] I really don't know what I'd do without him. I think he feels the same about me too.
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Date: 2024-04-13 10:36 pm (UTC)[ She smiles. ]
What brought you here today? There is much to discuss, aye?
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Date: 2024-04-16 10:51 am (UTC)[But probably, yes.]
When you said I was capable of powerful healing magic, you were right. But you knew that.
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Date: 2024-04-27 11:14 pm (UTC)[ She crosses one leg over her other. ]
Have you used your healing magic?
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Date: 2024-05-06 09:33 pm (UTC)Someone... Someone I care about a lot got badly hurt. I couldn't just... do nothing. Not when I had the ability to do something about it.
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Date: 2024-06-10 12:26 am (UTC)[ She smiles a little bit, knowing this is a huge step for him. ]
You were afraid though, weren't you?
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Date: 2024-06-13 06:21 pm (UTC)I thought he was going to die, right in front of me, just like--
[E'kayan stops and rubs his face.]
Just like Haurchefant.
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Date: 2024-06-13 07:26 pm (UTC)[ She frowns, reaching out to place her hand over his. ]
But he didn’t, did he? You healed your friend.
[She would be remiss to not mention the Haurchefant situation. ]
From what I know of Haurchefant, it was not your fault. But the experience is scary and traumatizing nevertheless.
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Date: 2024-06-22 08:18 pm (UTC)I know it wasn't my fault, and he wouldn't want me to blame myself for it either.
[Haurchefant would hate that. He'd want E'kayan to keep going... no matter what. The Miqo'te shakes his head.]
But I still... I know he'd still be alive if we hadn't approached him to begin with.
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Date: 2024-07-13 04:01 pm (UTC)I think your paths would have crossed eventually.
[Venat’s heart hurts for him. Was that why he was so scared? Did he not trust his own ability after that? ]
E’kayan, may I offer you a few words? You do not have to heed them of course. I know I have caused you far more trouble than you have ever asked for as well.
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Date: 2024-07-22 12:07 am (UTC)Maybe. [E'kayan murmurs. Haurchefant always did have a talent for finding trouble, especially where E'kayan was involved. Maybe Venat is right, and his involvement really was inevitable...
The Miqo'te looks up and cocks his head, then manages a smile.]
Only if it isn't 'Hear, Feel, Think', Venat.
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Date: 2024-07-25 05:24 am (UTC)Okay so maybe those words were a little bit cringey, but it helped, didn’t it?!
She just squeezes his hand.]
No, no. Those days are over. I wanted to say that you have grown immensely in the time you have been here.
It’s okay to have those doubts and fears you have, but you overcome them. Lean on those around you.
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Date: 2024-07-30 09:28 pm (UTC)E'kayan looks down at their hands when she squeezes his and smiles a little. It's funny to hear her say something like that.]
I had to learn to do that. [He agrees with a small nod.] It took longer than I would have liked, but... I did learn that. [Going to the First had helped, and everything that had come after had only solidified his resolve. He could face the most difficult of trials as long as he had people around him to lean on. They all could.]
But you'll remember your own words too, won't you? [The Miqo'te looks up at her then, giving a small shake of his head to move his hair out of his eyes.] You don't have to be alone either. Not anymore. So... I hope you're not, and that you're finding ways to be happy.
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Date: 2024-08-03 03:33 am (UTC)[ She is! She always has been! She knows that life has been tough for those she has selected as her champions. She is touched by his words as well, she knows that he well knew what she said and was able to use it back against her.
She just smiles, reassuring. ]
I am no longer alone, I promise, and it is because of all of you. I am blessed in that way at the very least.
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Date: 2024-08-04 12:04 am (UTC)I'm glad. You deserve happiness too.
[He wonders how many people have said that to her, or if she had thought about wanting that for herself. She had been alone for such a long time, carrying her burden with no one else to turn to. E'kayan has felt alone during his journey but he knows he can't even begin to comprehend her isolation.]
The loss has been hard, sometimes, but I've always tried to move forwards. Erenville, though... [The Miqo'te feels his face heat up.] It's different. I care about him... a lot. He's not just a friend.
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Date: 2024-08-04 05:05 pm (UTC)He’s not just a friend, hm? I’m glad to hear that for you as well.
[ She notices his cheeks heating up. ]
You deserve love too, E’kayan.
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Date: 2024-08-15 08:53 pm (UTC)[It's funny, how that hits him. He's never really thought about it in terms of being something he deserves, because doesn't everyone, but as she says those words he realises that at some point along the way he really did lose the hope that it was something he was ever going to get to have regardless of how much he might want it.]
No, he, um. He's not just a friend. [The colour in his face darkens.] I really don't know what I'd do without him. I think he feels the same about me too.